I want to quit.
I don't know. I think i do.
If I am constantly thinking about how i don't want to start on my to do list or call up the jack asses and laugh at their jokes and smile and nod at a boss i know is playing the fuck out of me by pulling everything i got in return for nothing at all; does that mean i want to quit?
Someone tell me!! I cant afford a therapist to tell me what i already know. And if i could afford one and went for a session i would agree to everything she says during and completely dismiss her the moment i leave her office.
My sister wants me to quit. so does my mother. and my father.
I am miserable and incapable of making my mind.
But you know what? this is the month of 'Do or Die'. I had my appraisals last week. for those of you who don't know what that means... go look it up. Ich habe keine zeit. If i don't get my promotion, my increment and my travel allowance, i hand in my resignation.
But I have a feeling that i will try to wiggle my way out of this promise, which is why i am typing this here. So that i have written proof of my decision.
I am done letting them pussy me around. I need to bring back that rich-bitch attitude that i was once so proud of. i need to shed the extra layers of regret and low self-esteem i have put on; need to loose all 15 kilos of it and more just for the final touches of confidence. I need to start working on myself. I need to start studying German instead of just paying for the classes, because just learning one sentence after more than Rs. 100,000/= worth of classes is just not enough!
Anyway, i might update you again about this, whoever, you are. Especially because this is a new computer and i need more reasons to type so that i get used to the keyboard.
Alright. Bye.
I don't know. I think i do.
If I am constantly thinking about how i don't want to start on my to do list or call up the jack asses and laugh at their jokes and smile and nod at a boss i know is playing the fuck out of me by pulling everything i got in return for nothing at all; does that mean i want to quit?
Someone tell me!! I cant afford a therapist to tell me what i already know. And if i could afford one and went for a session i would agree to everything she says during and completely dismiss her the moment i leave her office.
My sister wants me to quit. so does my mother. and my father.
I am miserable and incapable of making my mind.
But you know what? this is the month of 'Do or Die'. I had my appraisals last week. for those of you who don't know what that means... go look it up. Ich habe keine zeit. If i don't get my promotion, my increment and my travel allowance, i hand in my resignation.
But I have a feeling that i will try to wiggle my way out of this promise, which is why i am typing this here. So that i have written proof of my decision.
I am done letting them pussy me around. I need to bring back that rich-bitch attitude that i was once so proud of. i need to shed the extra layers of regret and low self-esteem i have put on; need to loose all 15 kilos of it and more just for the final touches of confidence. I need to start working on myself. I need to start studying German instead of just paying for the classes, because just learning one sentence after more than Rs. 100,000/= worth of classes is just not enough!
Anyway, i might update you again about this, whoever, you are. Especially because this is a new computer and i need more reasons to type so that i get used to the keyboard.
Alright. Bye.
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